You’re doing great.

Hey boos,

I haven’t done this in a while and it almost feels foreign, which is kind of sad. The days fly by so fast and before you know it, it’s 3 am a week before your semester exams and you’re half way through second year? It’s all a bit mad.

First, a quick update.

I don’t really know what to say, I guess I’m still transitioning into myself and that’s fine. I definitely do see growth in the way I act and in the way I respond to things,  there aren’t massive changes but I know they are steps in the right direction. Rome wasn’t built in a day and even though my slow pace can be frustrating at times, I know I will get to where I need to get to eventually.

I also had dinner with my friends last week, where I attempted to make Nigerian food and we spoke about Christianity and it was good, I think good chats came out of it but we’ll leave the rest in the hands of God.

I have exams literally next week, next week Tuesday. Don’t start.

Anyway, I’ve been noticing that as December is approaching, people seem to be burning out. I’ve heard a lot of complaints about tiredness and overthinking and going through it. Personally, I think it’s the year coming to an end and exams and everything seems to be taking its toll.

I was watching a video and at the end of it, the person says “You’re doing great” and I honestly almost started crying and I instantaneously felt better, it was then that I realised no one really says that anymore. When was the last time you told someone that they were doing great? When was the last time someone told you, you were doing great?

I think, as people, we’ve become so good at acting and so good at deciding for others. We’ve become so good at acting because we go on pretending as if everything is okay and as if we are perfectly perfect when we aren’t so no one ever thinks to give us any sort of reassurance. We’ve become so good at deciding for other people in that, we see someone and we instantly think they do not want or need reassurance.

I’m here to tell you that I am so proud of you.

Yea, you.

You’ve come so far from when you first began and I see it even when you don’t and I am so so proud of you for that.

I love watching the person you’re becoming, and even though you are tired and feeling a bit or very burned out and everything just seems like noise.

You are so loved and so appreciated and so well looked upon by your friends and family and you might be feeling lonely right now, but listen to me,  you aren’t. Trust me you are not. You have your friends and you have your family and you have me, always!

You may be feeling like you’re not beautiful or you are not attractive or smart or nobody loves you, but listen to me, you are beautiful.

You are beautiful and okay so maybe I don’t know what you look like but do you know what I know? I know that you’re beautiful in your soul, in your heart, in the thing that keeps you alive, you are beautiful there. You may not be able to see it, but the people around you do.

Maybe you’re not in a relationship and everyone around you is, so you feel like you’re not good enough, but you are. You don’t want to be with just anybody, you want to be with someone who loves you, every single bit of you, not just you when you look attractive but also you at 6 am in the morning when you haven’t taken a shower in 3 days (please take a shower) and don’t know what you’re doing with your life and you’re not going to find that in just anybody, it takes time. You take time. You are so worth that time.

You might not feel smart because everyone around you seems to be getting better grades than you, even though you try your hardest and you’re just tired. Listen, you are smart and maybe it takes you a little bit more effort than everyone else, that doesn’t make you stupid. You are smart and it’s okay if you’re smart in a different way, that’s still smart.

Please stop hating yourself.

You don’t deserve that.

Get to know yourself more, become friends with you. Do you even know what you like? what are your hobbies? what’s your favourite colour?

Get to know you, I’m sure you’ll surprise yourself.

Like I said Rome wasn’t built in a day, no good relationship just happens like that. A relationship with you is just like any other relationship, it needs time and nurturing. Become acquaintances first, talk about the weather and all that boring stuff then hang out with yourself, take yourself to see a movie, take a walk, talk to yourself.

You’re doing so well, my love. Be proud of yourself.

tldr: You’re doing great.

You’re doing so, so well.

Recommended song to listen with post: It is well (live) by Kirsten Dimarco, Bethel Music

Greater things by Mack Brock

 

ALEXA PLAY RECKLESS LOVE BY CORY ASBURY (I CRIED whilst writing this)

“What is mankind that you are mindful of them, human beings that you care for them?” Psalm 8:4

hey boos,

How are you? I’ve literally been working on this blog post for a while now, trying to get it right but I’m going to let God take reign and let him tell me what he wants me to write.

Basically, I wanted to speak about God’s love because I feel like sometimes we forget, sometimes we get so wrapped up in the mediocrities of life that we forget about the wider picture, the blessings, God even.

I was at church a couple weeks back for a programme called peniel, it’s held every year during the summer and this year was my first time attending. One of the preachers in the programme said something along the lines of, God sits of the throne with millions of angels who praise him perfectly, exactly as they should yet when one person, one person who’s voice cannot even match the quality of your favourite singers much less the angels, God tells them to stop so he can listen to that one person. Can you imagine a love like that? telling a great room of the best singing you have ever heard in your life to stop singing so you can hear one human voice?

Who am I that God should love me? the creator of things that I cannot even begin to understand, who created the dots on strawberries and causes dew to fall on the grass in the early morning, who am I that he should love me?

“Greater love has no one than this; to lay down one’s life for one’s friends” John 15:13

It’s hard to understand this because as humans we’re a bit selfish, although we boast about loyalty and “ride or dies” when it comes to it, there would only be a small population of people who would actually die for their friends. Do you know who did? and who would again a 100 million times if he had to? Jesus Christ. Did you know that the night before Jesus died on the cross, his heart was heavy? Do you want to know why? Because he was dreading it. Matthew 26:39 says “Going a little farther, he fell with his face to the ground and prayed, “My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will but you will” then he goes on to pray “My father, if it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done.” (Matthew 26:42)

Basically he’s saying, “God I dont really want to go through it but if it’s your will for me, if this is what I have to do then I’ll do it”. Have you ever seen such an amazing display of self sacrifice? to first be betrayed by someone you love and called your own and sold for money, then publicly taken away only to have the very person promising he would never deny you, deny you three times, to then have the public choose to free a criminal over you, to carry your cross AND then be nailed to it and be left there for three days whilst the guards make fun of you?

Jesus did all that, for you.

For you.

And your parents and your siblings and your friends and your grandparents.

He did it so we could all get a chance to God’s real real children, to be tight with God, to be Gods’ daughters and sons, to be brothers and sisters with Jesus.

He did it, so you could be family.

So do you understand now why the price if you don’t believe in God is so high? someone had to die a despicable death for it.

“The Lord watches over you- the Lord is your shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.” Psalm 121: 5-6

Soften your hearts and hear me, look at this, the sun will not harm you by day nor the moon by night, look at this love. Do you know what that means? it means that even at your most vulnerable stage, when you are not conscious and when you cannot do anything for yourself, God is protecting you, he is there, his angels are there, they are guarding you and keeping you safe. (Man I’ve teared up so many times with this post)

“The Lord will keep you from ALL harm- he will watch over your life; the Lord with watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.” Psalm 121: 7-8

Not some, not a few, but ALL, meaning every single harm, and not just today and tomorrow but for ALL of your life. Is that not love? Is that not real love?

“When you lie down, you will not be afraid; when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet. Have no fear of sudden disaster or of the ruin that overtakes the wicked, for the lord will be at your side and will keep your foot from being snared” -Proverbs 3: 26

Do you know what he is saying here? he says do not be anxious, he says do not be afraid, I know there are a lot of people who get anxious at night, anxious for life, anxious that they might die in their sleep, anxious that something bad will happen and here God is, God is “saying hey, hey listen, don’t worry about that, don’t be anxious about that, I got your back, just sleep, I got you”. Is that not real love?

What do you know about the God that leaves 99 sheep for the one that was left behind? What do you know about the God that says bring ALL of your burdens to me and take my own because mine is lighter? (I’m crying now) What do you know about the God that says I will carry you on my back and have my wings protect you? What do you know about the God that says “look I know you, I know you inside out, I know your weak points, I know the things you’ve done, I know you’ve said and done some things that hurt me and hurt yourself and the people around you, and even though the people might not have forgiven you, even though you may not have forgiven yourself, I forgive you.

I. Forgive. You.

I forgive you and I still love you.

To me, you are perfect, to me you are whole and you are clean and you are worth it and I love you.”

What do you know about that God? About my God? about Your God?

What do you know about the God that genuinely wants the best for you? That even in times of trial, he holds your hand, he tries to help it be as smooth as possible for you?

What do you know (I am quite literally bawling my eyes out, I’m gonna insert a picture to prove it) about the God that feels your pain? That feels your heaviness? The God that sees you crying in your pillow at 3 AM because your heart hurts and feels that pain?

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I don’t know what people have tried to tell you, I don’t know what you’ve heard or what you’ve read but if you take one thing away from this, I want it to be this;

In all that noise, in all that white noise, people talking, shouting, hustle and bustle, traffic, hardships, heartbreaks, God is there. God is there and he loves you. God sees you and he sees your pain and he pats your back and he says,

“My child, the storm is coming to an end, I’m here, I’m right here. I love you and I’m right here.”

Thank you God.

I could probably write on forever but I need to keep this a readable length.

(It was cloudy and immediately I ended this blog post, the dark clouds went away and the Sun shone, like immediately, if that’s not a sign of someone’s breakthrough, of someone’s rainy days coming to an end then I dont know what is)

Have a blessed day,

Lots of love,

Gedo xx

 

How to stay at ease during the exam period.

Hey boos,

Happy April aka one of the greatest months because 1. Jesus appreciation I mean I appreciate Jesus everyday, he died for our sins so we can all go to heaveeenn. 2. Springtime 3. Warmer weather 4. Summer soon 5. Acceptable splashing of cash.

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However before we get to all that good stuff, some of us, if not most of us have to go through exams.

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During exam season, I find that mental strength is kind of low, we’ve got people panicking, feeling like they’re not going to pass their exams, crying and a lot of self-deprecation. So I just wanted to spread some love, some positivity, some virtual hugs (I am cute, I know) and also some tips for how you can keep your sanity this exam season.

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  1.  Do not sleep late.

There’s this stigma that students who go to sleep late are the students that are working the hardest which isn’t essentially true. Going to sleep early means you can wake up earlier meaning that you can head to the library when everyone is still sleeping and work more efficiently.  Don’t thank me, thank science.

No but seriously, make sure you sleep early so that you can get enough sleep. If your body is relying on minimum amounts of sleep, energy drinks and caffeine, you can bet that you’re going to reach breaking point a lot faster and a lot harder than someone who is sleeping at 10 pm. Also going to sleep late means waking up later in the day and waking up later in the day means spending a lot of daytime you could have used studying to prepare yourself for the day.

2. Eat well.

Eat well and eat good. There’s this whole thing were eating whatever you want at whatever time you want is acceptable because it is exam season. Don’t punish your body please, it has done nothing wrong. Eat unhealthy foods at unacceptable hours will make you a lot more sluggish, a lot more tired and a lot more uncomfortable (because you will be bloated) and after exams, you’ll jump straight into trying to lose weight which isn’t probably what you want to think about around this time. (Trust me, I know what I’m talking about, I have had….a lot…of experience)

3. Take time out to breathe.

When I say take time out to breathe, I don’t mean lying in your bed and using your phone (which..let’s not kid ourselves is probably what’s going to end up happening..again…a lot of experience) I mean going outside and taking a walk or doing some colouring or talking to a friend or family member or praying or just breathing. Taking some recuperating time when you’re feeling mentally drained can be extremely useful (recharging your battery and ting).

4. Find a creative outlet.

(Weyhey what I’m doing right now) Find yourself a creative outlet, whether it be writing or painting or whatever it is, find something for yourself to do that can keep your mind away from the stress of exams.

5. Take showers or baths. (if you have time)

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They are a good stress relief.

Your exams are important because they help you develop study habits, boost your grade and you should study (deep how I boldened it, it means you should study), it’s also important that you take care yourself and don’t let yourself burn out until you’re a twitching, nervous wreck.

Now if you don’t mind, I’m gonna go back to studying.

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Have a blessed day,

Lots of love,

Gedo xx