3 positive affirmations you deserve to hear

Hey boos,

I am now officially on Summer break! You know what that means, I can actually pay attention to things! (YEEAAAA BOIIIII!)

So this week hasn’t been the easiest of weeks mentally, it’s not been bad but it’s not been great either and sometimes, actually very often, I watch ASMR to help me sleep (and it really helps me, some people think its really creepy but like get that negativity away from me, thank u x) anyway, at the end of this specific video, the youtuber said something along the lines of “You are loved, you are strong and I am proud of you.” and that really gave me comfort and joy. I think in this time, a lot of us still have exams, a lot of us are graduating, summer is coming and a lot of us don’t really know what we are going to be doing, we could all do with some positive affirmations. The bible has so many, like God’s word just encourages me so much and gives me so much comfort, it’s great.

  1. You are loved.

Romans 8; 37-39, possibly one of my favourite verses says “For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”

I love this passage so much because sometimes you think, how can God ever love someone like me? or you think that you’ve made him so angry and he doesn’t love you anymore, you think now that he’s seen how filthy my heart is, he wants nothing to do with me. This passage always comforts, and is like nah, there is nothing in creation that can separate us from God’s love, that can stop God from loving us, no matter how grimy and dirty you are, your heart is, how disobedient and stubborn your spirit is, God still loves you and you can’t stop that. It’s insane to think that even when you feel like no one in this universe loves you or cares for you, the creator of everything in this universe and more loves you. (happy reacts only) 

Not only has God loved you, he has also given you people that love you. “No one who has left home or brothers or sisters or mother or father or children or fields for me and the gospel will fail to receive a hundred times as much in this present age; homes, brothers, sisters, mothers, children and fields -along with persecutions-and in the age to come eternal life” -Mark 10; 29-30

God has given us so many Christian brothers and sisters and mothers and fathers that love us and are there for us*****, it truly is amazing. You have so many people in Christ that support you and love you and want the best for you. (I also put the rest of the verse because I wanted us all to see that Christianity is not all sunshine and rainbows but like its fine, our strength is in God)

2. There will be hard, trying times but the hard times don’t last.

Sometimes when you’re in a hard situation, in a rut, it’s just so hard to see the end of it. You feel like you might never leave there and just the thought of that is almost too hard to bear. Have no fear, you won’t be there forever.

“This is what the Lord Almighty says: “The fasts of fourth, fifth, seventh and tenth months will become joyful and glad occasions and happy festivals for Judah. Therefore love truth and peace” Zechariah 8;19. From my understanding, those fasts and times were times of mourning for Judah but God put an end to those fasts of mourning and turned them into glad and happy occasions, much like whatever it is you might be going through in this time. These days of sadness for you will be turned into days of joy and happiness, by God; in Jesus’s name, Amen.

“In that day I will restore the fallen house of David. I will repair its damaged walls. From the ruins I will rebuild it and restore its former glory” Amos 9;11****

God is will rebuild you from the ground up and restore whatever it is you think you might have lost. I can honestly say, it’s going to be fine. (..that is, if you let God come into your life and do the work that needs to be done in you to restore you and be pruned, you can’t grow and be better if you don’t let yourself get pruned)

3.  You’re not weak for asking for help.

So my friends and I were taking our love languages test the other day (well I was forcing everyone to take it, but that’s a different story) and the least love language sign for me was acts of service, which is like when someone helps you out. No surprise because I have always felt bad asking for help, I feel like when I ask for help, I am weak, that’s just my human pride speaking and not letting me get better and I need to work on it.

Accepting help does not make you weak at all. 

In fact Matthew 10: 9-11, Jesus urges his disciples to accept help from others.

“Do not get any gold or silver or copper to take with you in your belts- no bag for the journey or extra shirt or sandal of staff, for the worker is worth his keep. Whatever town or village you enter, search for some worthy person and stay at their house until you leave.”

There is no shame in asking for help when you need it, sometimes you need that extra support and that’s fine, that’s what the rest of us are here for.

In 2 Corinthians 1: 3-4, it says “Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ……….who comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.” God has helped us and we are here to help you with the help God has given us, it’s all good darling.

So those are the 3 positive affirmations, I think this is very important and I will be posting more on my blog as the Lord continues to reveal more to me. I plan on making another blog post on how the Word of God has comforted and confronted the beliefs I had about myself and I’m excited to put that up, should be good.

I hope we are all enjoying the lovely sun? (It’s so sunny in Edinburgh right now, I am absolutely THRIVING, Golden hour is literally the best time of my day)

Anyway, have a blessed weekend.

Lots of love,

Gedo xx

 

*****Also I am aware that not everyone is currently surrounded by people that truly mean and want the best for them and that’s sad because God obviously want us to have that comfort and I think church is a really good place to get that so I’d say a good first step is to get plugged in to a good church where you’re fed and loved (even if you aren’t a christian, I find a lot of joy and comfort and love just being at church, you can go on your own or ask your local friendly neighbourhood christian friend)  and of course, I’m always down to listen to anyone that needs a-listening.

****** That’s the version in my personal bible, the NIV says “I will restore David’s fallen shelter- I will repair its broken walls and restore its ruins- and will rebuild it as it used to be, so that they may possess the remnant of Edom and all the nations that bear my name”

Kind for kindness sake

“Make sure that nobody pays back wrong for wrong, but always strive to do what is good for each other and for everyone else” 1 Thessalonians 5:15

Hey boos,

How are you?

I haven’t been on this scene in such a long time, I apologise. I’m probably the worst blogger ever at this point but never fear, I’m genuinely going to try and upload more times a week because I have a lot of thoughts. Shall we try Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays? 

Today, I want to talk about kindness and why it is so important for us to make sure we show kindness to everyone, every single person.  The definition of kindness is the quality of being friendly, generous and considerate. We live in a society today, and I say this all the time, where being mean is glorified. It’s worse in Western societies where we have individualistic values, so instead of pouring into the community, pouring into each other, we’d rather pour into ourselves which is good, but not all the time.

I really believe that kindness is often times the right choice, we can’t read each other minds or know what the other person is thinking and because of that, it’s so important to treat each and everyone with kindness and respect.

The things that I remember the most and love to remember the most are kind actions that people have done to me, like once I had to carry my suitcase up some flight of stairs and I remember being a little bit stressed because I had to carry it and this guy, randomly out of nowhere comes and he takes my suitcase and helps me carry it up the flight of stairs, (S/O to you dude, I hope you’re good). I remember when I was ill and my friend went and got paracetamol for me and another time when I was ill and one of my friends helped me get something from the supermarket.

When we put ourselves in the mind of kindness, we make small yet powerful impacts in the lives of others. I truly believe that the world smiles back at us when we are kind,  kind consistently and kind for kindness sake. Call me cheesy but I wholeheartedly believe in the phrase “when you smile at the world, the world smiles back”. When we are kind to other people, we become more positive, life is a little sweeter, we enjoy things a lot more.

Myself for example, I spent a long portion of my life believing that being mean was cool, that if I didn’t smile and if I pretended I was cold and unfeeling, people would respect me and want to get to know me but I wasn’t really content*, the relationships I had never really ran deep, I honestly just wasn’t having a good time. Then I got closer to God and my faith and saw how much God talked about love so I embraced that idea and honestly my life is a lot better, I feel a lot more positive, I’m genuinely excited about life and I genuinely love people (people still annoy me A LOT tho, dont get me wrong)

I’m not saying that there will be one big overnight change, you smile at one person and all of a sudden your anxiety goes away but I think if we take small steps to get outside of our heads, the moment we learn to do things for another person’s benefits; small things like open doors, smile more, be there for friends and family, be encouraging, be more appreciative, rather than thinking about what WE might gain from it, we are one step closer to finding contentedness in this fast paced, over-achieving world.

I hope you’ve enjoyed this tidbit, let me know what you think in the comments below!

Have a blessed day,

Lots of love,

Gedo xx

 

*Now I’m not saying that everyone is like or should be like me, there are some people who are naturally reserved or really shy or are just not very good at being there for other people. Being kind can be different for everyone depending on who you are and what you’re like, for some people being kind can look like not making someone who looks extremely uncomfortable speaking, speak all the time. It can look like not asking someone to do something for you because you know that they are extremely busy, it can look like giving someone the change they need. Any way in which an action is not necessary and not beneficial to you but beneficial to someone else can be seen as kindness, I reckon.

** If you go to hug someone and they say “no, thank you. I’m not comfortable with hugs.” and you don’t hug them, that’s not kindness, that’s what you should do. If you see them later on and they are looking a bit down and a bit upset, you encouraging them and listening to them not because you want to go talk about them with your friends later or because it’ll make you seem like a good person but simply because they need it, that’s kindness.

You’re doing great.

Hey boos,

I haven’t done this in a while and it almost feels foreign, which is kind of sad. The days fly by so fast and before you know it, it’s 3 am a week before your semester exams and you’re half way through second year? It’s all a bit mad.

First, a quick update.

I don’t really know what to say, I guess I’m still transitioning into myself and that’s fine. I definitely do see growth in the way I act and in the way I respond to things,  there aren’t massive changes but I know they are steps in the right direction. Rome wasn’t built in a day and even though my slow pace can be frustrating at times, I know I will get to where I need to get to eventually.

I also had dinner with my friends last week, where I attempted to make Nigerian food and we spoke about Christianity and it was good, I think good chats came out of it but we’ll leave the rest in the hands of God.

I have exams literally next week, next week Tuesday. Don’t start.

Anyway, I’ve been noticing that as December is approaching, people seem to be burning out. I’ve heard a lot of complaints about tiredness and overthinking and going through it. Personally, I think it’s the year coming to an end and exams and everything seems to be taking its toll.

I was watching a video and at the end of it, the person says “You’re doing great” and I honestly almost started crying and I instantaneously felt better, it was then that I realised no one really says that anymore. When was the last time you told someone that they were doing great? When was the last time someone told you, you were doing great?

I think, as people, we’ve become so good at acting and so good at deciding for others. We’ve become so good at acting because we go on pretending as if everything is okay and as if we are perfectly perfect when we aren’t so no one ever thinks to give us any sort of reassurance. We’ve become so good at deciding for other people in that, we see someone and we instantly think they do not want or need reassurance.

I’m here to tell you that I am so proud of you.

Yea, you.

You’ve come so far from when you first began and I see it even when you don’t and I am so so proud of you for that.

I love watching the person you’re becoming, and even though you are tired and feeling a bit or very burned out and everything just seems like noise.

You are so loved and so appreciated and so well looked upon by your friends and family and you might be feeling lonely right now, but listen to me,  you aren’t. Trust me you are not. You have your friends and you have your family and you have me, always!

You may be feeling like you’re not beautiful or you are not attractive or smart or nobody loves you, but listen to me, you are beautiful.

You are beautiful and okay so maybe I don’t know what you look like but do you know what I know? I know that you’re beautiful in your soul, in your heart, in the thing that keeps you alive, you are beautiful there. You may not be able to see it, but the people around you do.

Maybe you’re not in a relationship and everyone around you is, so you feel like you’re not good enough, but you are. You don’t want to be with just anybody, you want to be with someone who loves you, every single bit of you, not just you when you look attractive but also you at 6 am in the morning when you haven’t taken a shower in 3 days (please take a shower) and don’t know what you’re doing with your life and you’re not going to find that in just anybody, it takes time. You take time. You are so worth that time.

You might not feel smart because everyone around you seems to be getting better grades than you, even though you try your hardest and you’re just tired. Listen, you are smart and maybe it takes you a little bit more effort than everyone else, that doesn’t make you stupid. You are smart and it’s okay if you’re smart in a different way, that’s still smart.

Please stop hating yourself.

You don’t deserve that.

Get to know yourself more, become friends with you. Do you even know what you like? what are your hobbies? what’s your favourite colour?

Get to know you, I’m sure you’ll surprise yourself.

Like I said Rome wasn’t built in a day, no good relationship just happens like that. A relationship with you is just like any other relationship, it needs time and nurturing. Become acquaintances first, talk about the weather and all that boring stuff then hang out with yourself, take yourself to see a movie, take a walk, talk to yourself.

You’re doing so well, my love. Be proud of yourself.

tldr: You’re doing great.

You’re doing so, so well.

Recommended song to listen with post: It is well (live) by Kirsten Dimarco, Bethel Music

Greater things by Mack Brock

 

ALEXA PLAY RECKLESS LOVE BY CORY ASBURY (I CRIED whilst writing this)

“What is mankind that you are mindful of them, human beings that you care for them?” Psalm 8:4

hey boos,

How are you? I’ve literally been working on this blog post for a while now, trying to get it right but I’m going to let God take reign and let him tell me what he wants me to write.

Basically, I wanted to speak about God’s love because I feel like sometimes we forget, sometimes we get so wrapped up in the mediocrities of life that we forget about the wider picture, the blessings, God even.

I was at church a couple weeks back for a programme called peniel, it’s held every year during the summer and this year was my first time attending. One of the preachers in the programme said something along the lines of, God sits of the throne with millions of angels who praise him perfectly, exactly as they should yet when one person, one person who’s voice cannot even match the quality of your favourite singers much less the angels, God tells them to stop so he can listen to that one person. Can you imagine a love like that? telling a great room of the best singing you have ever heard in your life to stop singing so you can hear one human voice?

Who am I that God should love me? the creator of things that I cannot even begin to understand, who created the dots on strawberries and causes dew to fall on the grass in the early morning, who am I that he should love me?

“Greater love has no one than this; to lay down one’s life for one’s friends” John 15:13

It’s hard to understand this because as humans we’re a bit selfish, although we boast about loyalty and “ride or dies” when it comes to it, there would only be a small population of people who would actually die for their friends. Do you know who did? and who would again a 100 million times if he had to? Jesus Christ. Did you know that the night before Jesus died on the cross, his heart was heavy? Do you want to know why? Because he was dreading it. Matthew 26:39 says “Going a little farther, he fell with his face to the ground and prayed, “My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will but you will” then he goes on to pray “My father, if it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done.” (Matthew 26:42)

Basically he’s saying, “God I dont really want to go through it but if it’s your will for me, if this is what I have to do then I’ll do it”. Have you ever seen such an amazing display of self sacrifice? to first be betrayed by someone you love and called your own and sold for money, then publicly taken away only to have the very person promising he would never deny you, deny you three times, to then have the public choose to free a criminal over you, to carry your cross AND then be nailed to it and be left there for three days whilst the guards make fun of you?

Jesus did all that, for you.

For you.

And your parents and your siblings and your friends and your grandparents.

He did it so we could all get a chance to God’s real real children, to be tight with God, to be Gods’ daughters and sons, to be brothers and sisters with Jesus.

He did it, so you could be family.

So do you understand now why the price if you don’t believe in God is so high? someone had to die a despicable death for it.

“The Lord watches over you- the Lord is your shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.” Psalm 121: 5-6

Soften your hearts and hear me, look at this, the sun will not harm you by day nor the moon by night, look at this love. Do you know what that means? it means that even at your most vulnerable stage, when you are not conscious and when you cannot do anything for yourself, God is protecting you, he is there, his angels are there, they are guarding you and keeping you safe. (Man I’ve teared up so many times with this post)

“The Lord will keep you from ALL harm- he will watch over your life; the Lord with watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.” Psalm 121: 7-8

Not some, not a few, but ALL, meaning every single harm, and not just today and tomorrow but for ALL of your life. Is that not love? Is that not real love?

“When you lie down, you will not be afraid; when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet. Have no fear of sudden disaster or of the ruin that overtakes the wicked, for the lord will be at your side and will keep your foot from being snared” -Proverbs 3: 26

Do you know what he is saying here? he says do not be anxious, he says do not be afraid, I know there are a lot of people who get anxious at night, anxious for life, anxious that they might die in their sleep, anxious that something bad will happen and here God is, God is “saying hey, hey listen, don’t worry about that, don’t be anxious about that, I got your back, just sleep, I got you”. Is that not real love?

What do you know about the God that leaves 99 sheep for the one that was left behind? What do you know about the God that says bring ALL of your burdens to me and take my own because mine is lighter? (I’m crying now) What do you know about the God that says I will carry you on my back and have my wings protect you? What do you know about the God that says “look I know you, I know you inside out, I know your weak points, I know the things you’ve done, I know you’ve said and done some things that hurt me and hurt yourself and the people around you, and even though the people might not have forgiven you, even though you may not have forgiven yourself, I forgive you.

I. Forgive. You.

I forgive you and I still love you.

To me, you are perfect, to me you are whole and you are clean and you are worth it and I love you.”

What do you know about that God? About my God? about Your God?

What do you know about the God that genuinely wants the best for you? That even in times of trial, he holds your hand, he tries to help it be as smooth as possible for you?

What do you know (I am quite literally bawling my eyes out, I’m gonna insert a picture to prove it) about the God that feels your pain? That feels your heaviness? The God that sees you crying in your pillow at 3 AM because your heart hurts and feels that pain?

38955243_1716462005129660_7486544256568393728_n (crying me x, in this house we love God and cry when we write about him, Alexa play reckless love by Cory Asbury)

I don’t know what people have tried to tell you, I don’t know what you’ve heard or what you’ve read but if you take one thing away from this, I want it to be this;

In all that noise, in all that white noise, people talking, shouting, hustle and bustle, traffic, hardships, heartbreaks, God is there. God is there and he loves you. God sees you and he sees your pain and he pats your back and he says,

“My child, the storm is coming to an end, I’m here, I’m right here. I love you and I’m right here.”

Thank you God.

I could probably write on forever but I need to keep this a readable length.

(It was cloudy and immediately I ended this blog post, the dark clouds went away and the Sun shone, like immediately, if that’s not a sign of someone’s breakthrough, of someone’s rainy days coming to an end then I dont know what is)

Have a blessed day,

Lots of love,

Gedo xx

 

GGTG: Gettin’ right with God

 

Hey boos,

How are you all doing? Hope your weekend has been all you’ve wanted it to be!

So if you’ve been following my blog consistently, you’ll remember that I posted a blog post Gospel Girltalk…or Guy: An honest Conversation. where I talked about how I didn’t love God as I should and how I only saw him as a military figure (either you do this or you’re out) and I think I can say that I am no longer on that route anymore.

This post is for Christians who are at the same point as me but have no idea how to get out of it, not all the things that worked for me are going to work for you and that’s perfectly fine, don’t beat yourself up about it, every person’s relationship with God is personal and there is no strict/distinct route that everyone must follow!

Here are the few things that I did that helped me.

  1. I constantly asked myself the question “Does this concern/affect my personal relationship with God?” and if the answer was no then I just left it alone.

If you spend a lot of time contemplating about the nitty gritty, thinking about what everybody is saying, taking everyone’s opinion to heart then it’s going to affect your relationship with God because then you’re not looking at him from your eyes, you’re looking at him from the eyes of everyone else.

2. Watch Transformation Church’s grace like a flood series (Grace).

It has helped me so much when it comes to rewiring what I once thought about who God was, it’s helped me see him in a different light. I 100% recommend, over and over again!

3. Listen to gospel music.

I actually enjoy listening to gospel music, I like Hillsong, I like Rend collective, Jesus Culture and some people might find it difficult finding gospel music that they enjoy so a list of gospel music could be something that I can look into.

4. Speak to God like how you’d speak to your friend or your mom.

God is like your closest friend, your dad so feel free to speak to him like your dad that he is. There is no one in this world that loves you and want to be your best friend more than he does so go for it.

5. Don’t put the pressure on yourself.

Don’t fear yourself into pushing him away by thinking you’re not a “good Christian”, God loves you and the moment you remove the pressure from yourself to be “the perfect Christian”, to believe in him, to appreciate all the things he has done for you. Make loving him your goal, not reading the bible everyday or praying twice a day.

From watching the Grace series there’s one thing I learnt that changed everything and that was, people don’t go to hell because of sin, they go to hell because they don’t believe. Human beings will slip and slide but God has already arranged for that, it’s your love he’s out for and once you realise that, it’s easy.

I was talking to one of my christian friends and I asked him how does he love God, how is he so close to him and he told me, I’m not really good at praying or reading the bible everyday and that left me stumped because I was praying and reading my bible everyday but I didn’t feel any connection with God because I didn’t love him. It was only after I retraced my steps, found out how I liked worshipping him (gospel music), learnt about his grace and how he will always love me that I finally began to understand.

Our relationship is not perfect, he is but I’m not and that’s fine because he loves me like that and I will regress sometimes but that’s also fine because he understands, all I need to do is cling onto his hand even when I can’t see his face because at the end of the day even though I may not be able to see him, he’s still carrying me along.

I really hope this helps and if you’re at the same place I was, please reach out because I completely, completely get it.

Have a blessed day,

Lots of love,

Gedo xx

(P.S. I have a fundraiser, https://www.justgiving.com/fundraising/ojoagedo-yamusa, please donate if you can!)

 

 

 

Gospel Girltalk….or guy: Habakkuk

Pre: I’ve had this in my drafts for a while so I decided to post it today, enjoyyy!

Hey boos,

I hope you are all having a wonderful day (or night). Today I’ve decided to share with you a few things I have learned from reading my bible, I’ve put them in simple easy to understand terms, so you can just pick them up and apply them into your daily life. I guess you could even call them Bitsized Bible  reading. So today we’ll be looking at the book of Habakkuk. The book of Habakkuk was written by well, the prophet Habakkuk and in this part of the bible, we find Habakkuk having a conversation with God.

Here are the things that I picked up from the first chapter of Habakkuk.

  • Even strong men of God lament to the Lord, even they get unsure and afraid and even them see horrible things and are frustrated.
  • God is always one step ahead, he always knows what is going to happen and he even warns us before they happen to prepare us or so that we may avoid them.
  • In the beginning, atleast in the message version, it starts with “The problem as God gave Habakkuk to see it”. This shows that God chose for Habakkuk to see things in the perspective that he saw them, ask God to help you see things in a wider perspective or through a positive light. This could really help when you feel like you are in a bad situation.

Hopefully, from this you have learn’t something. Have a read at Habakkuk and let me know what you have learnt! God chooses to show different things to different people, so let’s hear what he showed you!

Have a blessed day,

Gedo xx

Gospel Girltalk…or Guy: An honest Conversation.

Hey boos,

I don’t know what is going to happen with this post, I just feel led to write it so let’s see where it goes?

So recently I’ve just come to a block with my relationship with God and I’ve come to a realization that I don’t know God and I don’t know how to love him. That’s probably coming off as a total shocker to a lot of people considering how I’m so open about my faith and how much I appreciate God. Let me explain what I mean.

I realized that I don’t really know God for myself and I don’t know how to have a personal relationship with him. In a sense, I’ve been like the Pharisees, you know, when Jesus came because I only do traditions. I don’t pray because I want to talk to God, I pray because I feel like if I don’t, God will hate me or someone who is close to me will die because I haven’t prayed for protection over them and then when I do pray it’s the same monotonous prayer that I always pray because I don’t know how to talk to God.

I realized when I post things on my social media, praising God publically it’s not necessarily because I want to but because I feel like if I don’t, I’m not being a good Christian. I don’t do things or say things or listen to things or watch things because I feel like I’m not being a good Christian. So by doing things not because I love him or because I want to do them but because I feel like if I don’t do them, I will be punished, I have hardened my heart to God. I don’t love him the way I should and I don’t know what it feels like to love him (yet) because I haven’t been spending my time doing things because I love God, I’ve been spending my time in a routine that has just made me harden my heart towards him. I do things because I am afraid of the consequences (this is hard to write).

My mom always used to tell me this all the time about how I see God as a military God who punishes those who don’t live exactly according to his rules with no compassion whatsoever and I didn’t understand at the time, I just didn’t see it but now I’ve come to this realization and it’s hard, to be honest. I’m moving forward now, trying to unlearn my old ways which isn’t easy either but by God’s grace, I’ll stop and this time I’ll not just “know” but I’ll believe as well.

I’ve never really had Christian friends, I’ve had friends that are also Christians but are Christians in their own time if you know what I mean. Like we didn’t really talk about our faith when we hung out. Now though, I’m trying to get more involved with the Christian Union, making Christian friends and it’s great but then I realized that I started feeling insecure about my faith. I felt like I wasn’t a good Christian (again with this good Christian malarky) like my Christian wasn’t Christian enough. I remember there was a blog post I did, I think it was about anxiety or something and I was a bit anxious to post it (wow) because I was afraid that they would read it and not think my belief in God was good enough? I don’t know, but it happened. Now I’m beginning to learn that there is really no such thing as a “good” Christian, or “not being Christian enough”. A relationship with God is a personal thing and just because my relationship with God is different from yours or because the way I pray is different from the way you pray, doesn’t necessarily mean that I’m a bad Christian because, at the end of the day, I’m praying to my God who knows my voice.

I’ve also been feeling like I don’t know what I’m doing with my life, today, I watched a video about this 23 year old woman who started a company in the Netherlands and she moved to the United States and her life just looked so great and put together and it led me in a whole spin about the fact that I had no passions and I hadn’t made any accomplishments at the age of 19 and just not really doing anything and it really weighed down on my spirits, so I went to lay in my bed and it just came to mind that I should keep on doing what I’m doing that God was going to lead me somewhere. I kind of ignored it and kept on listening to my “chasing pavements” by Adele cause you know, when Gedo goes in she REALLY goes in but the thought just kept coming into mind and I brought out my journal to complain about how everything I try ends up failing only to end up looking at my goals, I got a little more inspired and went to take a shower and instead had a full heartfelt worship session to God and I really felt like he had a plan for me and that I really do have greater things to come, like I really felt it.

I think what I’m trying to say is Christians go through hardships, everyone goes through hard times and struggle but we have God to cling on to and if we just cling, we can make it.

This is supposed to be a post to encourage and to let you know that we all have our days and our doubts and our low points but God has a greater plan for you, for me, for all of us.

If you were looking for a “sign” to not give up, to stay on it, to keep trying then this is your sign.

Greater things are yet to come.

Have a very blessed day,

Lots of love,

Gedo xx

Gospel girltalk…or guy: Anxiety

Hey boos,

How are you? I’m supposed to be completing my business notes right now but instead, I’m by the window in the library writing this #iluvuni.

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Anyhow, I feel like I haven’t done a GGTG segment in a while but that’s because, just like you, I’m still on this walk with God and I still don’t really know what I’m doing (lol). Sometimes I feel like I know some stuff and sometimes, I feel like I know nothing and these days I’ve been feeling like I know nothing. I’m not perfect and neither is my relationship with God, which is what brings us into our topic for today.

I feel like a lot of people see Christians as beings that are incapable of feeling anything that is not synonymous with good (I wish it were true, I really do) but fortunately or unfortunately, that is not the case. They see Christians as these people that don’t face disappointment or confusion or even depression and anxiety, all we do is quote bible verses (please, I wish I could quote bible verses whenever I wanted toand attack and judge anyone else who is not Christian (false yet again, we’re actually nice people pls

If you’re reading this and going through something, I don’t  expect you to read this and be healed or feel better, I just want to assure you that there is a light at the end of the tunnel, even if you can’t see it yet.

Anxiety according to Google dictionary is defined as a feeling of worry, nervousness or unease about something with an uncertain outcome, another definition is a nervous disorder marked by excessive uneasiness and apprehension, typically with compulsive behavior or panic attacks. GAD, according to NHS, Generalised Anxiety Disorder is a common condition that is estimated to affect up to 5% of the UK population which doesn’t sound like a lot until you realize that GAD is only one type of anxiety disorder.

If anxiety or anything at all is physically stopping you from living your life, physically stopping you from performing tasks and LIVING please, please, please get help, it does not make you weak, it does not make you a bad christian, please get the help you need. 

What does the bible say about it? 

God loves us. Say it with me. 

One.

Two.

Three.

God. Loves. Me.

God loves us, and the last thing he wants to see us is in pain, the last thing he wants to see us do is suffer and go through rough times and be anxious and depressed, and honestly his heart breaks for us when he sees us sad, just like your heart breaks when you see your mother or father or siblings or someone really close to you depressed.

1 Peter 5: 6 says “Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you” and then in Matthew 11:28, it states “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest”. He understands that we all go through these rough times and he does not blame you for that, he genuinely just wants to take all the hurt away.

The problem is sometimes we’re so deep in our sorrow, like even when we try to push our head up against the water, the devil pushes our head right back into it again (which is why, when you first feel yourself going down that hole, you get out of it because the more you sink, the more you’re stuck)

In Matthew 6:26, the bible states “Look at the birds of the air, they do not sew or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?” and it’s so encouraging because it reassures that everything is going to be alright eventually because if God takes care of the birds and the wild flowers, things that can be considered insignificant, he definitely has our back, I mean, this is the same God that sent his son, Jesus to die for you, he’s got this, this message is so important that it’s in the bible twice, there is an identical passage to this one in Luke 12: 24. In fact, Romans 8:38 to 39 even says “For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels or demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our lord”. Not even your anxiety or your depression can separate you from God’s love, no matter what it tries to tell you, whether it be that he’s not listening, or that he doesn’t love you or that you’re not a good christian or that you’re not doing enough, he still loves you.

What do I do then?

  1. Go to church

I know it sounds like such a typical thing to say but I am serious. Going to church when you feel anxious is such a great thing, being in the house of God brings about some sort of comfort and there you can just lay all your worries and your sorrows and whatever it is that is weighing you down on the cross. My cousin once told me the story of a girl who got broken up with and used going to church as a way to cry without people judging her and it actually ended up helping her relationship with God. Now, I’m not saying you should go to church when you need a good cry but it is one of the first places you should go with a heavy heart because it is the Lord’s house. Where did Hannah go when she had a very heavy heart in the bible? She traveled to church and there she let down the troubles of her heart out so well that the priest there, who had probably seen so many people pray, thought she was drunk and what does the bible say at the end? “Then she went away and ate something and her face was no longer downcast” (1 Samuel 1:18). So go to church,get something to eat and let your face not be downcast. You might not get the answer you’re looking for but you will find comfort, and peace and people who you can confide in and can pray for you.

2. Get someone to pray for/with you.

Whenever I get sad, I find it a little bit difficult to pray and sometimes getting someone to pray for and with you can be so beneficial. Matthew 18: 19-20 says “Again I say to you, if two of you agree on earth about anything they ask, it will be done for them by my Father in heaven. For where two or three are gathered in my name, there I am among them.” and James 5:14-15 says “is any amongst you sick? Let him call for the elders of the church, and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord. And the prayer of faith will save the one who is sick, and the Lord will raise him up. And if he has committed sins, he will be forgiven”. It’s okay to ask for support, that’s what we are here for. If you don’t have someone to pray for or with you, feel free to message me anytime.

3. Listen to gospel.

Another typical thing to say but it does help. I recommend songs like “Live!” by Tye Tribbett, “Take me to the King” by Tamela Mann and Kirk Franklin and my favourite right now, “Road trip” by Kirk Franklin, that one always manages to put me in a good mood, also “Rescuer” by Rend Collective (issajam) but yes, I get it, sometimes you’re really just not up for it but putting on those gospel tunes really does help with the calm, comfort and peace.

When I get into times of need, I also try my best to watch preaching about God’s love for me, and faith and hope and just things that are really encouraging. Most importantly, pray, prayer is so important, even though it’s just a couple words, let God know, ask for help. He wants to help you just as much as you want to be helped. And if you feel like he’s not listening, he is, just not in the way that you think he is. Christianity can be difficult sometimes especially in times like this,  because you don’t get the direct answer or the direct feeling of being better, sometimes you have to wait. Ibuprofen and pain reliefs don’t work instantaneously, they take about 30 minutes before they start kicking in.

Listen to me darling, times like these are one of the times where it feels difficult to be a christian but these are also the times where you have to hold on to God the most, I promise you and I don’t promise a lot, but I promise you, hang on to God baby, you are going to make it.

It is going to be okay.

Have a blessed week,

Lots of love,

Gedo xx

Also here’s some more encouraging bible verses for ya..

Proverbs 3: 5-6

Philippians 4:6-7

John 14:27

Colossians 3:15

Psalms 55:22

Proverbs 12:25 (such a cute one this one)

1 Peters 5:6-8 (Important! do read)

Hebrews 13:5-6 (if material things are worrying you/people are scaring you)

Psalm 56:3 (A prayer to God)

 

 

Gospel Girltalk..or Guy: #IfIWasn’tAChristian

Hey boos,

Fancy seeing you here huh?

*insert awkward stare down*

Okay so I might have skipped several upload days but it’s fine, I had exams and that’s a pretty good excuse. Those exams are now nicely tucked away so here I am again, back from hiding and  ready for the Christmas festivities. I am listening to Christmas music as I write this.

I love everything about Christmas, it’s genuinely my favorite holiday and the fact that my birthday is IN the Christmas season makes everything so much better (ain’t nothing better than coming together, celebrating Jesus, family and friend togetherness and just all round love) I love it, I really do.

Anyway I haven’t done a GGTG in what feels like a while, so here we are.

Today, I am going to talk about what I would be like if I wasn’t a Christian. So I was on the bus a couple weeks ago and I was just thinking about, you know deep things, and this came into my head and I thought I’d share it.

I can honestly and truthfully say that being a Christian has made me a better person and not just saying that because I’m a Christian (trying to make other people see Christianity as well).

what? who said that?

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If I wasn’t a Christian, I don’t think I would be a very likable person. I would have been extremely rude, and people probably wouldn’t be able to stand me. I would be hateful and judgmental. Sometimes I catch my thoughts when I’m off-guard and I would have been a mean person who didn’t know when to stop. Having Christ in my life and reading the bible has helped me see what a Christian should be like, loving, kind, patient, non-judgmental, non-deceitful, a person anyone can come to and feel at ease.

If I wasn’t a Christian, I would take absolutely everything for granted and never be thankful for what I have or what anyone has done for me, I would definitely have felt like the world owed me something, and if I didn’t get my way I would be very upset. I would never try to see the other side and revenge would always be the answer.

I would have been a liar. I would not have known what to do with honesty and I definitely would not have known how to handle disappointment.

I would be depressed and lonely.

I would be the kind of person that makes these horrible, senseless jokes that are just so bad (I don’t mean cringey, I mean hurtful or just bad) that you would even feel bad for laughing. I would have thought the whole world was out to get me and felt very unloved. I would have depended on guys to give me their seal of approval and if they didn’t, I would have felt like I wasn’t good enough or that there was something wrong with me.

I would have felt very lost.

I mean my poetry would be at its peak but it would come at the cost of my happiness.

It’s interesting because I did use to be and feel all these things and I was never happy with myself and I used to indulge in things that I regret now. Seeing myself now that I know who God is and learning more and more about him versus the way I was before, I honestly cannot sit here and say that God is not real and that he hasn’t done anything for me.

I’m a lot more emotionally stable now, I am cheerier and I think a bit more patient and loving and accepting. I won’t lie, on very rare occasions I wish I could just shrug off my morals and shrug off all that God has taught me and just do what I want but then I remember the person I was and I don’t want to be her again, for anything.

This is definitely not the end of the road for me, I still have a lot more growing and learning to do and I can’t wait to look back, weeks, months, years from now and see how I have changed.

Wow that got very deep, very fast.

So there we have it folks, how I would be #IfIWasntAChristian

Tell me in the comments your  #IfIWasntAChristian story, and if you have ever felt any of the things I felt before Christ or if you’re going through them right now.

If you liked what you read make sure you like and hit that follow button on the right to be made aware whenever I post and if you still can’t get enough of me, follow my social media links on the right, let’s make our friendship better 😉

Lots of love,

Gedo xx

 

 

4 struggles of a shopaholics

Hey boos,

I hope your Monday is going better than you expected and if it’s not, I hope this blog post cheers you up!

Here are 4 struggles of a shopaholic and of-course, I can’t relate

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Let’s begin!

  1. Lists don’t work.

So regular people usually have an idea of what they are going to get before going into a store or they make a list of things that they need before they go in, this doesn’t work for a shopaholic. A shopaholic might make a list but as soon as they get into the store, everything they had intended to buy will seem unimportant and they will walk out with goods completely different from what they had planned initially.

I can always buy a white shirt later, this is on sale and I have been wanting it since forever. 

I can’t just leave it here, it was made for me!

2. Window shopping doesn’t work either.

A shopaholic knows that window shopping doesn’t work so if they want to save money, they just don’t go out (literally ME). Window shopping just doesn’t happen, it’s like torture. A shopaholic can only window shop if they’re going somewhere where they absolutely cannot afford and even that would probably be one of the hardest and most painful feeling. If a shopaholic goes out to just look around not planning on getting anything, they will most likely get something.

Woah, this is so cute.

I’ve been looking at this for forever!

I don’t know if I’ll see it again..

NEED!

It’s on sale though….

3.  “Who took my money?”

A shopaholic NEVER knows where their money has gone. I’m not a shopaholic

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However I do find myself often wondering if there’s a little gnome that comes into my room every night to take my money only to realize that that gnome has taken the form of a new top I definitely didn’t need and food that I don’t even remember buying.

4. You can never find anything. 

I know I put it here or..maybe I didn’t..

“Have you seen my dark purple shirt? with the big sleeves?” 

I could have sworn it was here yesterday. 

Where.Is.It. 

You can never find anything because you have too much stuff and when you ask someone if they’ve seen what you’re looking for they never miss the opportunity to remind you that you have way too much stuff.

But at the end of the day, it’s not your fault you like good things.

I hope you enjoyed this blog post, make sure to tap that follow button on the right to know where I am going and if you really want to come, make sure you to follow me on my social media as well!

Have a blessed day,

Lots of love,

Gedo xx

Disclaimer: I am not condoning aimless spending of money. Budgeting and money management are very important skills. Learn them.