Gospel Girltalk…or Guy: An honest Conversation.

Hey boos,

I don’t know what is going to happen with this post, I just feel led to write it so let’s see where it goes?

So recently I’ve just come to a block with my relationship with God and I’ve come to a realization that I don’t know God and I don’t know how to love him. That’s probably coming off as a total shocker to a lot of people considering how I’m so open about my faith and how much I appreciate God. Let me explain what I mean.

I realized that I don’t really know God for myself and I don’t know how to have a personal relationship with him. In a sense, I’ve been like the Pharisees, you know, when Jesus came because I only do traditions. I don’t pray because I want to talk to God, I pray because I feel like if I don’t, God will hate me or someone who is close to me will die because I haven’t prayed for protection over them and then when I do pray it’s the same monotonous prayer that I always pray because I don’t know how to talk to God.

I realized when I post things on my social media, praising God publically it’s not necessarily because I want to but because I feel like if I don’t, I’m not being a good Christian. I don’t do things or say things or listen to things or watch things because I feel like I’m not being a good Christian. So by doing things not because I love him or because I want to do them but because I feel like if I don’t do them, I will be punished, I have hardened my heart to God. I don’t love him the way I should and I don’t know what it feels like to love him (yet) because I haven’t been spending my time doing things because I love God, I’ve been spending my time in a routine that has just made me harden my heart towards him. I do things because I am afraid of the consequences (this is hard to write).

My mom always used to tell me this all the time about how I see God as a military God who punishes those who don’t live exactly according to his rules with no compassion whatsoever and I didn’t understand at the time, I just didn’t see it but now I’ve come to this realization and it’s hard, to be honest. I’m moving forward now, trying to unlearn my old ways which isn’t easy either but by God’s grace, I’ll stop and this time I’ll not just “know” but I’ll believe as well.

I’ve never really had Christian friends, I’ve had friends that are also Christians but are Christians in their own time if you know what I mean. Like we didn’t really talk about our faith when we hung out. Now though, I’m trying to get more involved with the Christian Union, making Christian friends and it’s great but then I realized that I started feeling insecure about my faith. I felt like I wasn’t a good Christian (again with this good Christian malarky) like my Christian wasn’t Christian enough. I remember there was a blog post I did, I think it was about anxiety or something and I was a bit anxious to post it (wow) because I was afraid that they would read it and not think my belief in God was good enough? I don’t know, but it happened. Now I’m beginning to learn that there is really no such thing as a “good” Christian, or “not being Christian enough”. A relationship with God is a personal thing and just because my relationship with God is different from yours or because the way I pray is different from the way you pray, doesn’t necessarily mean that I’m a bad Christian because, at the end of the day, I’m praying to my God who knows my voice.

I’ve also been feeling like I don’t know what I’m doing with my life, today, I watched a video about this 23 year old woman who started a company in the Netherlands and she moved to the United States and her life just looked so great and put together and it led me in a whole spin about the fact that I had no passions and I hadn’t made any accomplishments at the age of 19 and just not really doing anything and it really weighed down on my spirits, so I went to lay in my bed and it just came to mind that I should keep on doing what I’m doing that God was going to lead me somewhere. I kind of ignored it and kept on listening to my “chasing pavements” by Adele cause you know, when Gedo goes in she REALLY goes in but the thought just kept coming into mind and I brought out my journal to complain about how everything I try ends up failing only to end up looking at my goals, I got a little more inspired and went to take a shower and instead had a full heartfelt worship session to God and I really felt like he had a plan for me and that I really do have greater things to come, like I really felt it.

I think what I’m trying to say is Christians go through hardships, everyone goes through hard times and struggle but we have God to cling on to and if we just cling, we can make it.

This is supposed to be a post to encourage and to let you know that we all have our days and our doubts and our low points but God has a greater plan for you, for me, for all of us.

If you were looking for a “sign” to not give up, to stay on it, to keep trying then this is your sign.

Greater things are yet to come.

Have a very blessed day,

Lots of love,

Gedo xx

How to stay at ease during the exam period.

Hey boos,

Happy April aka one of the greatest months because 1. Jesus appreciation I mean I appreciate Jesus everyday, he died for our sins so we can all go to heaveeenn. 2. Springtime 3. Warmer weather 4. Summer soon 5. Acceptable splashing of cash.

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However before we get to all that good stuff, some of us, if not most of us have to go through exams.

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During exam season, I find that mental strength is kind of low, we’ve got people panicking, feeling like they’re not going to pass their exams, crying and a lot of self-deprecation. So I just wanted to spread some love, some positivity, some virtual hugs (I am cute, I know) and also some tips for how you can keep your sanity this exam season.

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  1.  Do not sleep late.

There’s this stigma that students who go to sleep late are the students that are working the hardest which isn’t essentially true. Going to sleep early means you can wake up earlier meaning that you can head to the library when everyone is still sleeping and work more efficiently.  Don’t thank me, thank science.

No but seriously, make sure you sleep early so that you can get enough sleep. If your body is relying on minimum amounts of sleep, energy drinks and caffeine, you can bet that you’re going to reach breaking point a lot faster and a lot harder than someone who is sleeping at 10 pm. Also going to sleep late means waking up later in the day and waking up later in the day means spending a lot of daytime you could have used studying to prepare yourself for the day.

2. Eat well.

Eat well and eat good. There’s this whole thing were eating whatever you want at whatever time you want is acceptable because it is exam season. Don’t punish your body please, it has done nothing wrong. Eat unhealthy foods at unacceptable hours will make you a lot more sluggish, a lot more tired and a lot more uncomfortable (because you will be bloated) and after exams, you’ll jump straight into trying to lose weight which isn’t probably what you want to think about around this time. (Trust me, I know what I’m talking about, I have had….a lot…of experience)

3. Take time out to breathe.

When I say take time out to breathe, I don’t mean lying in your bed and using your phone (which..let’s not kid ourselves is probably what’s going to end up happening..again…a lot of experience) I mean going outside and taking a walk or doing some colouring or talking to a friend or family member or praying or just breathing. Taking some recuperating time when you’re feeling mentally drained can be extremely useful (recharging your battery and ting).

4. Find a creative outlet.

(Weyhey what I’m doing right now) Find yourself a creative outlet, whether it be writing or painting or whatever it is, find something for yourself to do that can keep your mind away from the stress of exams.

5. Take showers or baths. (if you have time)

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They are a good stress relief.

Your exams are important because they help you develop study habits, boost your grade and you should study (deep how I boldened it, it means you should study), it’s also important that you take care yourself and don’t let yourself burn out until you’re a twitching, nervous wreck.

Now if you don’t mind, I’m gonna go back to studying.

If you enjoyed these tips, comment what class you feel the most prepared for, if you want to hear more from me, click the follow button and if you still want me you can follow my social media on the right.

Have a blessed day,

Lots of love,

Gedo xx

 

A post you didn’t know you needed.

Hey boos,

How has your week been?

…doesn’t matter because it’s the weekend!!

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(sike it matters, you matter, I love you, wholesome content only)

How was your Easter? What did you do? Did you get April fooled? Where you doing the one that was doing the April Foolery? Let me know how it went. My Easter was so so good, my family and I went out for lunch and no one April fooled me 😦 (I wanted to be..)

We thank Jesus for dying for us and giving us another chance even though we didnt deserve it. Thanks Jesus (woohoooOoOOoOo0)

Anyway today’s post is a guide of how to get back on your feet after you’ve had a mental slump. What’s a mental slump? That period where you’re lazy, unfocused and unmotivated, you ask yourself what’s the point and why are you even doing the things you do and you feel like you’re watching your life fall apart but you cant do anything about it. Coming out of a mental slump feels so good but can sometimes be overwhelming because you don’t even know where to start, and that’s why you’re reading this post right now so let’s get straight into it.

  1. Do your dirty dishes.

You don’t realize how much of a burden dirty dishes are until your sink is nice and empty so put some indie tunes on and get those dishes done.

2. Cook.

Being in your mental slump, you probably haven’t been eating a lot and if you are, it probably has been food that isn’t good for you, or is frozen. Which is why cooking and eating a fresh meal feels so good. If you don’t like cooking (I feel your pain), the hardest part is starting, once you get started and have glorious food on your plate, you’ll find that it was totally worth it. Cooking also gives you this odd sense of having your life together already so there you go.

3. Clean your room.

Whether we want to admit it or not, a messy room is very inconvenient (trust me I know) and sure in its messy state you might know where everything is but it’s not the same story when you’re in a hurry to get out the door and all of a sudden, you can’t find your keys. Having a tidy room helps you get into that fresh, organized #bosslady or #bossman zone a lot quicker.

4. Go over your goals and re-write them.

When in a mental slump we often completely forget our goals because we’re so busy trying to do the bare minimum (get up, get dressed, go to class, do assignments) and that’s why it’s extremely hard to stay motivated because you’re just doing the bare minimum and you don’t even know why you’re doing it, everything just seems so pointless. Looking at your goals, and re-writing them a couple times helps to motivate you because as you look over them, you can imagine yourself checking them all off and you imagine how you’d feel checking them off and that is such a strong motivator.

5. Fill in your planner/calendar.

I really like this task because even though it’s such an easy task, it’s very helpful. Filling in all the plans and events you have into your planner/calendar helps you get into a productive state of mind. It helps you feel organized and it helps you feel motivated enough to move on to more difficult tasks.  If you don’t have a planner or a calender (get one) you can always make a list of all the things you need to get done and when you need to get it done by and just check that off as you go.

So those are 5 things you can do when you’re just out of a mental slump and you don’t even know where to start, I also encourage watching an encouraging preaching as well as “productivity” videos on YouTube.

I hope you found this helpful, let me know in the comments what things you do to help you get your life back on track.

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Have a blessed weekend,

Lots of love,

Gedo xx