Fancy seeing you here huh?
*insert awkward stare down*
Okay so I might have skipped several upload days but it’s fine, I had exams and that’s a pretty good excuse. Those exams are now nicely tucked away so here I am again, back from hiding and ready for the Christmas festivities. I am listening to Christmas music as I write this.
I love everything about Christmas, it’s genuinely my favorite holiday and the fact that my birthday is IN the Christmas season makes everything so much better (ain’t nothing better than coming together, celebrating Jesus, family and friend togetherness and just all round love) I love it, I really do.
Anyway I haven’t done a GGTG in what feels like a while, so here we are.
Today, I am going to talk about what I would be like if I wasn’t a Christian. So I was on the bus a couple weeks ago and I was just thinking about, you know deep things, and this came into my head and I thought I’d share it.
I can honestly and truthfully say that being a Christian has made me a better person and not just saying that because I’m a Christian (trying to make other people see Christianity as well).
what? who said that?
If I wasn’t a Christian, I don’t think I would be a very likable person. I would have been extremely rude, and people probably wouldn’t be able to stand me. I would be hateful and judgmental. Sometimes I catch my thoughts when I’m off-guard and I would have been a mean person who didn’t know when to stop. Having Christ in my life and reading the bible has helped me see what a Christian should be like, loving, kind, patient, non-judgmental, non-deceitful, a person anyone can come to and feel at ease.
If I wasn’t a Christian, I would take absolutely everything for granted and never be thankful for what I have or what anyone has done for me, I would definitely have felt like the world owed me something, and if I didn’t get my way I would be very upset. I would never try to see the other side and revenge would always be the answer.
I would have been a liar. I would not have known what to do with honesty and I definitely would not have known how to handle disappointment.
I would be depressed and lonely.
I would be the kind of person that makes these horrible, senseless jokes that are just so bad (I don’t mean cringey, I mean hurtful or just bad) that you would even feel bad for laughing. I would have thought the whole world was out to get me and felt very unloved. I would have depended on guys to give me their seal of approval and if they didn’t, I would have felt like I wasn’t good enough or that there was something wrong with me.
I would have felt very lost.
I mean my poetry would be at its peak but it would come at the cost of my happiness.
It’s interesting because I did use to be and feel all these things and I was never happy with myself and I used to indulge in things that I regret now. Seeing myself now that I know who God is and learning more and more about him versus the way I was before, I honestly cannot sit here and say that God is not real and that he hasn’t done anything for me.
I’m a lot more emotionally stable now, I am cheerier and I think a bit more patient and loving and accepting. I won’t lie, on very rare occasions I wish I could just shrug off my morals and shrug off all that God has taught me and just do what I want but then I remember the person I was and I don’t want to be her again, for anything.
This is definitely not the end of the road for me, I still have a lot more growing and learning to do and I can’t wait to look back, weeks, months, years from now and see how I have changed.
Wow that got very deep, very fast.
So there we have it folks, how I would be #IfIWasntAChristian
Tell me in the comments your #IfIWasntAChristian story, and if you have ever felt any of the things I felt before Christ or if you’re going through them right now.
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Lots of love,